January 08
圣诞节的时候虽然没有像R那样收到一大束玫瑰, 而且我还是在工作中度过这个快乐的节日,可是今年的圣诞节我还是快乐的。虽然上篇日子中说的对圣诞的强烈预感真的发生，本来等待的事情终究没有发生，可是我可爱的学生们却温暖了我的心。
圣诞那天给孩子们上完课几乎所有人都离开教室以后一个很可爱的孩子走上了讲台，从包包里哪出了一个chocolate flower，虽然当时来不及反应，只是说了声谢谢，可是心里还是很高兴的。记得平安夜那天晚上一个孩子就给我发来了一个‘浪漫’的礼物，第一次我的电脑桌面上摆满了玫瑰。对于玫瑰，这种形式的送法我还是很接受的，可想起在北京离别的时候收的那束，现在想来还是半点浪漫的感觉都没有，看来送花还是要选择the right moment的！！Boxing Day那天收到了一份很珍贵的礼物，四个可爱的女生仿佛是知道我的需要那样给我送了面非常精致的镜子，收到礼物的时候身边的同事还羡慕了一番，羡慕的不是镜子本身，而是学生对我的心意。 
晚上在回去的公车上看了她们给我写的话，满是感动，真的！那些话超越了所有东西，是世上对我最珍贵的礼物了！！她们不止一个人提到我的笑容，要我keep着这样的微笑。在WE的时候M等等就曾经说过我的笑容，还记得R引用R的话说我的课堂上要学习的就是我那笑容，可我从不知道自己的笑容能有那样的力量。其实我并不是一个爱笑的人，可对着自己喜欢的人就会从心地里经常地对对方微笑。在英国的时候J就曾经不以为然地说我是个笑点很低的人,可却从不明白那都是要看人的!
孩子们的期末考结束了,等改完试卷我们就真的算是结束了，如果可以的话我根本不愿意牺牲任何一个班。可人生就是那样，有很多的相聚相识和离别，到了一个月后她们又会遇到新的老师，我也要面对新的学生，无论如何，在那个时候我们就快乐的去面对新认识的朋友吧！现在想来有点可惜没有和她/他们留影，以后只能在学校里相遇了！倒是下学期还会再见的人却那么积极地和我留下了所谓的‘最后纪念’......
和长得很像的他们的超'晕'的手机6连拍(早知道手机都有这个功能的话我就乖乖站好了):
December 22
Don't know why, but I feel really down today. Christmas is coming. A lot of things just flashed back. It should really be the week that I am thrilled about, but I just failed to amuse myself. Don't know what's wrong with me... My sixth sense become very acute these days, and I sensed that this Christmas would be nothing but disappointment. Anyone, please prove me wrong!
Things happened on Christmas night in the past 6 years just flashed back, but I even failed to smile on the memory. Poor thing!
These days I've been waiting and most of the time disappointment just got hold of me...
Maybe I just didn't have enough time to rest, for I felt dizzy these few days, sometimes even during class. Maybe exhaustion leads to frustration...
Maybe I really need a holiday to rest; maybe I really need to watch some Christmas movies to cheer myself up, if I have time...; maybe I really need a relaxed gathering with my friends if they are available...
Maybe if there's no 'if's, I will be cheerful again!
December 08
It's coming to the end of the year now. I feel excited and upset at the same time.
I feel excited because it's almost the end of my 'hardship' this term, and the winter vacation is on its way
But I feel upset because 2009 is coming. I don't feel upset for my age, but feel really upset for the fact that things happened in London and my lovely gals are becoming the history of my life...
I feel sorrow when thinking of the departure I will be facing 2 weeks later. Some of them may means forever... I am not the kind of girls who like crying in front of people, so I really hate saying goodbye to the ones that I value. Well, I 'officially' told my kids and some of my friends that I quit the job, and some of my kids asked me to stay with them for another term while some just feel very calm facing the departure. Some of my friends feel upset for my leaving, but what I can say is that we can hang out when we have time... Actually, don't really know when we both have time...
Anyway, the situation in ZHBIT is the same. Some kids just strongly suggested me to stay with them till the end of their English study, and even some said that they would try to keep the same level in the final exams this time to try to be in my class. But some just immediately cheered up when I annouced that 2 weeks later we had to say goodbye forever, espcially that poor guy... Some lovely kids just applauded when I told them I would stay with them next term. Well, anyway, nothing is not 100% sure at this stage. I am a little worrried that all my classes will be changed next term... Hope not!!!
Just found out that I don't need to prefare for the classes for the sophomores anymore, and this again reminds me of the departure that's chasing me... I just hope that next time we see each other, we will still say hello with a smiling face!
November 23
今天3路车上人很多很多，上了车以后我就只能站在门口了。可是没想到在我身后又来了几个背着大包小包的乘客。没有任何的歧视，可我就是看不惯有的人看见人已经那么挤了还要不顾其他人在人群中毫不注意的横冲直撞。这让我想起了上次坐车时那个已经快40出头的男人，按理说都应该是很懂事理的人，可背着一个超级大包，就那样挤过来，还毫不注意的转身，马上他的包包就把我‘推到’一边去了。哎，这次也那样，那群男人也无视别人的存在，利用自己的大包几乎把我挤到了坐着的人身上，说实话我有千万个烦这样没礼貌的人。
没想到就在这个时候不可思议的事情发生了。一个原来坐着的男生看见我这种情况，二话不说站了起来，对我说‘坐吧’，然后就挤到人群中站着了。
说实话，我长这么大了，这是第一次有人给我让座，本以为自己还要过几十年才会出现的情况。自己在69路车上经常给老人做的事情，忽然有人这样对我却觉得那么的新奇，况且那个男生看起来和我差不多年纪。他的行为只能归纳为一种gentleman的举动吧！
为什么这么说呢？主要还是因为珠海很多，应该说大部分的人就算自己坐着老弱伤残的座位，看见了老人上车也是毫不惭愧地坐着，丝毫没有让座的打算。我这种年纪，就是因为人太挤而给我让座的，我还是第一次遇到，况且那男生在我下车前还没有下车,poor guy。至于我究竟有没有坐他让的座呢，就是秘密了，哈哈。
November 17
I bought a handbag for myself as a Christmas present today.
How time flies. I've graduated from the uni for 2 years, been living in UK 1 year ago, and been back for 1 year...
2008 means so much to me.
Many things happend since I've been back to China. The begining of this year, I had my first and only interview in a uni. Then it came to the Spring Festival, when I got to know a very nice ppl. In April, I received my MA degree and in May, I had my 25th birthday, a turning point in my life, and I think, in everyone's life. After that, I worked in WE, where I got to know a number of very nice ppl who supported and helped me to merge into the big family. But unfortunately, I had to quit in July. I didn't tell everyone my leave, just because I didn't want to go and didn't know how to tell everyone the news. Only a few ppl saw my tears that time...
In the middle of July, I went to GZ to have a 3-week training where I met LX. She is a really nice girl, and in fact I immediately knew that we can get on well with each other the moment she entered the dorm. We shared almost the same attitude towards things, and she is a very caring elder sister. With her, we struggled through the unbearable life in GZ.
Then, I came to know another nice ppl and I stared to work in the uni. I felt very stressed the first 2 weeks but by and by the Ss and I kinda merged together. But unfortunately, I was sick on Sept. and Oct. but as I was so hectic that time, I hardly had time to go to the hospital. Although I barely have enough time to sleep, I like working with my lovely Ss. They may not be good Ss to many ppl, but they are all very kind-hearted.
This is what happened to me so far in 2008.
So, if I have to define what 2008 is to me, I have to say:
It is the turning point for me, not because I am 25, but because I finished my study and began to work this year;
It is the time for me to get back to parents after having been away from home for 5 years;
It is also the time to get to know so many new friends who shared my happiness and sorrow, who supported and made me laugh in hard times, who cared about whether I went to the hospital and whether I took the medicine on time, and who always persuaded me to have a rest and didn't want to see me overwork.
It is also the time that I started to give my mum some money each month and afford to buy what I like to buy.
Very sad but true that it is also the time that I was 'questioned' many times whether I was in a relationship and if not, I should start to see someone now. What disgusts me is not the question itself, but the fact that I was being 'questioned' again and again. They simply didn't realize one important thing. This is not something that I can control but something that is out of anyone's hand. It's never easy to be in a romantic relationship.
There're less than 2 months left before 2009 and I am waiting for sth. that can wow me. Things that can surprise me not shock me. I am actually feeling blue these few days. Don't know the exact reason but I deeply know that it's because of this and that kind of reason. Wish me good luck the last 2 months!!
November 03
Christmas is coming...
That is to say it's almost time to say good bye to the kids who I like so much.
现在回想起来，有从一开始就伸开双手用温暖的怀抱欢迎我的人，也有那些最初我以为冷漠，却其实是不懂得表达自己而表现冷漠的孩子，以前学心理学就学过，比起那些刚开始就相处得很好的人，你会和那些刚开始不好而后来慢慢关系好起来的人感情更深。
在这个即将离别的日子里，也是那群本来‘冷漠’的孩子第一个开口喊出‘老师，你不要走’的话，说实话，听到那样的话我心里真的暖暖的. 天知道，我为了这群孩子我费了多少力，心里面曾经有多难过，多灰心，可现在他们却让我几乎每次课都有了从心底发出的微笑. 他们不是好学生，不过相对比我的那些好学生，他们却显得那么的热情。我的那些好学生面对离别，为什么又会显得如此的冷漠呢？是还没有到时间吗？还是真的无所谓?
和孩子们第一次的见面，我怎么也没想到相遇紧接着的是离别，可也许对他们来说我们的相遇也只是离别的前夕吧。现在就开始觉得可惜了，那是一群匆匆进入到生命却有匆匆离开的可爱的人。珍惜吧，以后再学校还是有相见的机会。希望那个时候还能微笑着打招呼。
August 18
该要马上做的事情还没做，晚上老做梦，梦到的都是考试，不是大学或研究生时候的考试，而是该死的那些中学时代我不擅长的学科的考试。为什么会这样呢？其实也没什么好紧张的，课我也不停在备了，可自己的心境就好像学生一样，像是临考前的学生一样。哎，是因为暑假快要结束了吗？总是觉得学生时期的生活是幸福的，除了一点，那就是中学时代备考那些自己不擅长的科目的时候！！！啊！这种心理什么时候能结束呢？
总是希望自己能平静地过日子，可一遇到什么事潜意识就开始作祟就开始白天和晚上都在焦虑着...
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