圣诞节的时候虽然没有像R那样收到一大束玫瑰, 而且我还是在工作中度过这个快乐的节日,可是今年的圣诞节我还是快乐的。虽然上篇日子中说的对圣诞的强烈预感真的发生，本来等待的事情终究没有发生，可是我可爱的学生们却温暖了我的心。
     圣诞那天给孩子们上完课几乎所有人都离开教室以后一个很可爱的孩子走上了讲台，从包包里哪出了一个chocolate flower，虽然当时来不及反应，只是说了声谢谢，可是心里还是很高兴的。记得平安夜那天晚上一个孩子就给我发来了一个‘浪漫’的礼物，第一次我的电脑桌面上摆满了玫瑰。对于玫瑰，这种形式的送法我还是很接受的，可想起在北京离别的时候收的那束，现在想来还是半点浪漫的感觉都没有，看来送花还是要选择the right moment的！！Boxing Day那天收到了一份很珍贵的礼物，四个可爱的女生仿佛是知道我的需要那样给我送了面非常精致的镜子，收到礼物的时候身边的同事还羡慕了一番，羡慕的不是镜子本身，而是学生对我的心意。   晚上在回去的公车上看了她们给我写的话，满是感动，真的！那些话超越了所有东西，是世上对我最珍贵的礼物了！！她们不止一个人提到我的笑容，要我keep着这样的微笑。在WE的时候M等等就曾经说过我的笑容，还记得R引用R的话说我的课堂上要学习的就是我那笑容，可我从不知道自己的笑容能有那样的力量。其实我并不是一个爱笑的人，可对着自己喜欢的人就会从心地里经常地对对方微笑。在英国的时候J就曾经不以为然地说我是个笑点很低的人,可却从不明白那都是要看人的!
     孩子们的期末考结束了,等改完试卷我们就真的算是结束了，如果可以的话我根本不愿意牺牲任何一个班。可人生就是那样，有很多的相聚相识和离别，到了一个月后她们又会遇到新的老师，我也要面对新的学生，无论如何，在那个时候我们就快乐的去面对新认识的朋友吧！现在想来有点可惜没有和她/他们留影，以后只能在学校里相遇了！倒是下学期还会再见的人却那么积极地和我留下了所谓的‘最后纪念’......

和长得很像的他们的超'晕'的手机6连拍(早知道手机都有这个功能的话我就乖乖站好了):

    Don't know why, but I feel really down today. Christmas is coming. A lot of things just flashed back.  It should really be the week that I am thrilled about, but I just failed to amuse myself. Don't know what's wrong with me... My sixth sense become very acute these days, and I sensed that this Christmas would be nothing but disappointment. Anyone, please prove me wrong!
    Things happened on Christmas night in the past 6 years just flashed back, but I even failed to smile on the memory. Poor thing!
    These days I've been waiting and most of the time disappointment just got hold of me...
    Maybe I just didn't have enough time to rest, for I felt dizzy these few days, sometimes even during class. Maybe exhaustion leads to frustration...
    Maybe I really need a holiday to rest; maybe I really need to watch some Christmas movies to cheer myself up, if I have time...; maybe I really need a relaxed gathering with my friends if they are available...
    Maybe if there's no 'if's, I will be cheerful again!

It's coming to the end of the year now. I feel excited and upset at the same time.
I feel excited because it's almost the end of my 'hardship' this term, and the winter vacation is on its way

But I feel upset because 2009 is coming. I don't feel upset for my age, but feel really upset for the fact that things happened in London and my lovely gals are becoming the history of my life...

I feel sorrow when thinking of the departure I will be facing 2 weeks later. Some of them may means forever... I am not the kind of girls who like crying in front of people, so I really hate saying goodbye to the ones that I value. Well, I 'officially' told my kids and some of my friends that I quit the job, and some of my kids asked me to stay with them for another term while some just feel very calm facing the departure. Some of my friends feel upset for my leaving, but what I can say is that we can hang out when we have time... Actually, don't really know when we both have time...

Anyway, the situation in ZHBIT is the same. Some kids just strongly suggested me to stay with them till the end of their English study, and even some said that they would try to keep the same level in the final exams this time to try to be in my class. But some just immediately cheered up when I annouced that 2 weeks later we had to say goodbye forever, espcially that poor guy...  Some lovely kids just applauded when I told them I would stay with them next term. Well, anyway, nothing is not 100% sure at this stage. I am a little worrried that all my classes will be changed next term... Hope not!!!

Just found out that I don't need to prefare for the classes for the sophomores anymore, and this again reminds me of the departure that's chasing me... I just hope that next time we see each other, we will still say hello with a smiling face!

      今天3路车上人很多很多，上了车以后我就只能站在门口了。可是没想到在我身后又来了几个背着大包小包的乘客。没有任何的歧视，可我就是看不惯有的人看见人已经那么挤了还要不顾其他人在人群中毫不注意的横冲直撞。这让我想起了上次坐车时那个已经快40出头的男人，按理说都应该是很懂事理的人，可背着一个超级大包，就那样挤过来，还毫不注意的转身，马上他的包包就把我‘推到’一边去了。哎，这次也那样，那群男人也无视别人的存在，利用自己的大包几乎把我挤到了坐着的人身上，说实话我有千万个烦这样没礼貌的人。
      没想到就在这个时候不可思议的事情发生了。一个原来坐着的男生看见我这种情况，二话不说站了起来，对我说‘坐吧’，然后就挤到人群中站着了。
      说实话，我长这么大了，这是第一次有人给我让座，本以为自己还要过几十年才会出现的情况。自己在69路车上经常给老人做的事情，忽然有人这样对我却觉得那么的新奇，况且那个男生看起来和我差不多年纪。他的行为只能归纳为一种gentleman的举动吧！
     为什么这么说呢？主要还是因为珠海很多，应该说大部分的人就算自己坐着老弱伤残的座位，看见了老人上车也是毫不惭愧地坐着，丝毫没有让座的打算。我这种年纪，就是因为人太挤而给我让座的，我还是第一次遇到，况且那男生在我下车前还没有下车,poor guy。至于我究竟有没有坐他让的座呢，就是秘密了，哈哈。

I bought a handbag for myself as a Christmas present today.

How time flies. I've graduated from the uni for 2 years, been living in UK 1 year ago, and been back for 1 year...
2008 means so much to me.

Many things happend since I've been back to China. The begining of this year, I had my first and only interview in a uni. Then it came to the Spring Festival, when I got to know a very nice ppl. In April, I received my MA degree and in May, I had my 25th birthday, a turning point in my life, and I think, in everyone's life. After that, I worked in WE, where I got to know a number of very nice ppl who supported and helped me to merge into the big family. But unfortunately, I had to quit in July. I didn't tell everyone my leave, just because I didn't want to go and didn't know how to tell everyone the news. Only a few ppl saw my tears that time...

In the middle of July, I went to GZ to have a 3-week training where I met LX. She is a really nice girl, and in fact I immediately knew that we can get on well with each other the moment she entered the dorm. We shared almost the same attitude towards things, and she is a very caring elder sister. With her, we struggled through the unbearable life in GZ.
Then, I came to know another nice ppl and I stared to work in the uni. I felt very stressed the first 2 weeks but by and by the Ss and I kinda merged together. But unfortunately, I was sick on Sept. and Oct. but as I was so hectic that time, I hardly had time to go to the hospital. Although I barely have enough time to sleep, I like working with my lovely Ss. They may not be good Ss to many ppl, but they are all very kind-hearted.

This is what happened to me so far in 2008.

So, if I have to define what 2008 is to me, I have to say:

It is the turning point for me, not because I am 25, but because I finished my study and began to work this year;
It is the time for me to get back to parents after having been away from home for 5 years;

It is also the time to get to know so many new friends who shared my happiness and sorrow, who supported and made me laugh in hard times, who cared about whether I went to the hospital and whether I took the medicine on time, and who always persuaded me to have a rest and didn't want to see me overwork.

It is also the time that I started to give my mum some money each month and afford to buy what I like to buy.

Very sad but true that it is also the time that I was 'questioned' many times whether I was in a relationship and if not, I should start to see someone now. What disgusts me is not the question itself, but the fact that I was being 'questioned' again and again. They simply didn't realize one important thing. This is not something that I can control but something that is out of anyone's hand. It's never easy to be in a romantic relationship.

There're less than 2 months left before 2009 and I am waiting for sth. that can wow me. Things that can surprise me not shock me. I am actually feeling blue these few days. Don't know the exact reason but I deeply know that it's because of this and that kind of reason. Wish me good luck the last 2 months!!

Christmas is coming...

That is to say it's almost time to say good bye to the kids who I like so much.

现在回想起来，有从一开始就伸开双手用温暖的怀抱欢迎我的人，也有那些最初我以为冷漠，却其实是不懂得表达自己而表现冷漠的孩子，以前学心理学就学过，比起那些刚开始就相处得很好的人，你会和那些刚开始不好而后来慢慢关系好起来的人感情更深。

在这个即将离别的日子里，也是那群本来‘冷漠’的孩子第一个开口喊出‘老师，你不要走’的话，说实话，听到那样的话我心里真的暖暖的. 天知道，我为了这群孩子我费了多少力，心里面曾经有多难过，多灰心，可现在他们却让我几乎每次课都有了从心底发出的微笑. 他们不是好学生，不过相对比我的那些好学生，他们却显得那么的热情。我的那些好学生面对离别，为什么又会显得如此的冷漠呢？是还没有到时间吗？还是真的无所谓?

和孩子们第一次的见面，我怎么也没想到相遇紧接着的是离别，可也许对他们来说我们的相遇也只是离别的前夕吧。现在就开始觉得可惜了，那是一群匆匆进入到生命却有匆匆离开的可爱的人。珍惜吧，以后再学校还是有相见的机会。希望那个时候还能微笑着打招呼。

      该要马上做的事情还没做，晚上老做梦，梦到的都是考试，不是大学或研究生时候的考试，而是该死的那些中学时代我不擅长的学科的考试。为什么会这样呢？其实也没什么好紧张的，课我也不停在备了，可自己的心境就好像学生一样，像是临考前的学生一样。哎，是因为暑假快要结束了吗？总是觉得学生时期的生活是幸福的，除了一点，那就是中学时代备考那些自己不擅长的科目的时候！！！啊！这种心理什么时候能结束呢？

       总是希望自己能平静地过日子，可一遇到什么事潜意识就开始作祟就开始白天和晚上都在焦虑着...

       只想说今天的试讲很成功，成功地打动了各个主管和校董的心！心里还是美滋滋的！忽然发现有时候自己的笑容真的能为自己度过很多难关，能够攻破很多堡垒！

       很快，还再坚持几天就能从这个深渊里面跳出来了，不过又要跳进另一个深渊，不过这个深渊里起码有我亲切的主管等着我，还好！加油吧！本该休息的时间又被换成了加班培训，究竟这种连续工作几周的生活啥时候是个尽头呢？等培训完了就是漫长而又紧张的2个月的暑期了，估计那个时候更没有时间休息了。我可怜的身体啊，这几个月究竟要用多少咖啡来支撑我这已经被耗得无几的精神呢？？？感觉都快赶上明星那非人的生活了，可怜的我啊。。。

Just watched Atonement today.

Before watching it, I thought it was a story related to warfare.

I have no interest in warfare,

so that's why I waited till now to watch this movie.

What should I say about this movie?

It's a sad story which made me upset and literarily made me cry.

Really can't imagine how stupid and ignorance Briony was.

Yes, she was just 13.

But young as she was, at least she should know what is right and what is wrong,

& at least, being a well-educated 'lady', she should know she must not tell lies,

& no matter under what circumstances, she must not read others' private letter.

All of these, she just failed to do it.

I remembered when I was in London, Michael told us that people see and hear what they want to see and hear,

rather than what it is in the real world.

Yes, and I must say that seeing is not believing.

Atonement is just the very example to prove this truth.

The fates of Robbie and Cecilia would have been changed completely, if Briony had behaved as a sensible person.

Maybe her heart and her soul had been completely distorted when she didn't get the 'proper' response that she expected from Robbie when she told him she loved him.

Maybe what she did was becasue of her jealousy.

Maybe she just couldn't bear the fact that Robbie and her sister were so close and in fact in a relationship.

Or maybe it's just because she was ignorant, and didn't know the consequences of her lie.

She could've asked Cecilia what happened between Robbie and Cee, but she didn't.

And that's this ignorance which ruined two people's life.

That's the tragedy.

Both of the victims died before they could finally get back to each other.

Some writers seeked a sense of comfort or repentence through writing, through giving a happy ending to a story which orginally ended with sadness and sorrow.

And that's this Briony.

In the book, she gave what Robbie and Cecilia lost out on in life.

I felt offended when she said this is a final act of kindness, and she gave them their happiness.

To me, what she thought was just a comfort that she was longing to have...

From Alice

游戏规则：
A. 被点到的名字要在自己的空间里把这20条问题复制下来并写下自己的答案，然后去掉一个你最不喜欢的问题再加上一个你的问题，仍然组成20个问题，传给8个人（就是列出其他需要回答问题的人的名字）还要到这8个人的空间里留言通知对方——你被点名了，被点名者不得拒绝回答问题，完成游戏的人将会得到大家的祝福！
B. 这8个人要在自己的空间里注明是从哪里接到的，并且传给其他8个人，让游戏继续下去，不得回传。被点到名的人将会得到大家的祝福，并且所有美好的愿望都会在不久的将来实现。。。

Attention!!! 以下的这些亲爱的被我点名了: 猫, 培文, 倪蕊,  兰, 张羽, 子琪, 石磊, 陶文.

1. 你觉得你是个好情人或是好老公（老婆）吗？
答：应该是好情人吧,老婆的话,这个也太远了。

2. 你最近锻炼身体的方式是？

答：瑜伽。

3. 你认为分手后的男女朋友还能做普通朋友吗？
答：可以。

4. 请说一句最想对我说的话！
答：新年快乐哈。

5. 你相信承诺吗？为什么？
答：相信，这是快乐生活着的理由。

6. 你觉得朋友相处最重要是什么？
答：相互尊重。

7. 当你的初恋情人出现在你面前时，他（她）还是放不下你的，你会动摇吗？
答：不晓得，上一次见他已经是小学6年级的事了。

8. 最近有没有突然下的决定？是什么？
答：新年期间不穿裙子，实在太冷了。

9. 最讨厌哪种人？
答：做事不利索的人。

10. 你相信一见钟情吗？
答：不相信。

11. 如果你的女朋友（男朋友），跟你的最要好的朋友保持很亲密的关系，你会怎么做？
答：勒令他和她保持距离。

12.你的首要择偶条件是？
答：喜欢我。

13. 你喜欢你自己吗？
答：不喜欢。

14题被我删了。

15. 如果你的男（女）朋友有你最不喜欢的爱好，比如抽烟喝酒，你会怎么办？
答：心里面想一万次希望他能改掉，不过专家不是说不应该改变自己的另一半而是自己去适应对方吗？

16题被Alice删掉了。

17. 你相信会有一辈子的爱吗？
答：应该有！

18. 爱情和自由，你选择哪个？
答：自由。

19.生活中哪个瞬间会让你最感动？
答：失落时身边人一句温暖的安慰。

20.你会在特殊的时刻许愿吗？
答：很少。总觉得很多东西要靠自己去努力实现。

21.你觉得生活的目标是什么？

答：踏实地活着，精彩地走过这一生。

22.喜欢和爱的边界在哪？

答：喜欢一个人你不在乎他的缺点，爱一个人你会在乎他的一切。

23.30岁之前你想成为什么样的人？

答:正在读博士的人。

My question: 你的人生重心是什么？

刚刚看了小学同学space上的照片,从她的照片上我看见了许多曾经熟悉的脸孔。然后又从这个人的空间连接到了另一个人的空间，再从这个人的空间转到另一个人的空间。在那一刹那我感觉到的是时光的倒转，在那一刹那我看见了久违的人的脸孔。从一张张的照片中我看见了微笑，他们都还好。

人生总是充满了离别和重逢。而我的人生也不例外，重逢的人是有的，而最富有传奇性的应该说是和叶俊勇的再相遇了。他是我幼儿园就认识的人，应该说他也是我所有朋友当中认识时间最长而且还有联系的人了吧，这样算算大概都有21年的历史了。已经忘记了我们是几岁的时候认识的，也忘记了刚认识的时候是否特别友好，只是时间慢慢地过去，我和他上了同一个小学，初中，高中，然后高中毕业了大家就完全失去联系了，然后也不知道是怎样的缘故，在我出国前我们又相遇了。还记得走之前和他在coffe shop里的小聚，他比以前瘦多了，人也稳重了不少，可是没有变的是以前那种感觉，就正如他所说的，我们的相遇仿佛是忽然找到了失散多年的兄弟姐妹。其实，除了他，在前不久我还是通过贝俊彬找回了许多以前小学的同学，不过一直都没来得及和她们见面。

如果说要计算重逢和离别的比例，我的人生中离别更多。我感觉我的人生是分成很多个完全毫无联系的部分。还没上幼儿园之前的童年时代，除了记得有一个叫阿权的童年玩伴和旧家的一些零碎记忆以外什么都不记得，有时我会怀疑，我在童年的时候是不是出过什么以外，为什么我几乎什么都记不起来。然后就开始了上幼儿园的时代了，那里只记得几个人，谖谖，叶俊勇，廖忠剑等等，有时我还会看幼儿园的大合照，不过说实话，幼儿园时期发生过什么我也不太能记起来了，只记得跳过舞，仿佛也唱过歌？然后就是小学还有初中高中了。说实话，这漫长的12年里我是记住了不少的人，可是他/她们分别是我什么时期的同学和朋友，我确实是不太能分清了。小学里发生了我的‘初恋’，其实当时的我也许并不真的喜欢对方吧，只是一切都来得那么的顺理成章，那时的我们连手都没有拖过哦。哈哈，这样想起来我的初恋其实并不甜蜜，不过他注定永远在我心里不会忘记。然后就是初中和高中，初中时期的我脾气特别不好，朋友很少，高中时代的我脾气收敛了，有了一些要好的朋友，也和谖谖最终重逢，可是同时也遭遇到好朋友的背叛和背地里使坏，我承认我从来就不是一个很容易亲近的人，所以在恶意中伤的情况下我度过了最痛苦的高三生活，那是充满排挤和恶言恶语的时期，不过在那个黑暗的时期我也遇到了理解和支持我的人。

浑浑噩噩的高中时期过去了，我不带太多的留恋来到了北京开始了我的新生活。我的大学生活是忙碌而充实，甜蜜而悲伤的。在大学里我活得比高三时期更加忙碌，有一段时间一星期7天也只有一个下午是空闲的，不知道自己是在积极的充实生活还是在消极地逃避寂寞。可能也是因为时间上的忙碌还有空间上的阻隔，我和小学初高中的所有人几乎断了联系。就那样匆匆的4年过去了，我得到了许多，同时也失去了许多。然后我带着悲伤和难过到了伦敦展开我的新人生，在那里我的计划是用一年的时间忘记一些必须忘记的人和必须忘记的事情。最后，也如我所愿地，我不再为他而难过，然后，现在的我为了异国认识的她们而展开了想念。

我的人生很是奇怪，永远充满了遗忘和新的思念。看着旧朋友们快乐在一起的照片，I wondered what my life would've become if I never left them?

牛和狮子彼此非常相爱。牛每天都采鲜嫩的草给狮子吃，狮子不喜欢，但一直忍耐着吃着草； 而狮子天天为牛准备最美味的生肉，牛很痛苦，也只好忍耐着。但不久，他们还是要分手。分手的时候，他们都说了这样一句话：我已经为你尽了全力。

只想着自己的立场会给对方很大的伤害吧？

相爱应该就在于优先考虑对方的吧？

虽然拼着命尽全力，那也不一定就是为了对方着想的。

希望大家不要先想到自己而是考虑到为对方。

但是，应该怎样做才能使对方幸福？

各位千万不要忘了这一点：

牺牲自己去为对方考虑，可能也不是爱情。

不要贬低自己的价值，

也不要只考虑自己的立场。

虽然这样做起来是很难，

但这也才是能维持真爱的唯一正确答案。

但如果你做到这一点还是失败了，

那么对方就不是您的真爱，

那么就请果断地忘掉，

再开始新的爱情吧！

                                                                                                                                   ------from Romance Hunter